Ang hirap magsulat...

I cannot really say that I'm a very good writer, if you perceive a good writer as someone na iisang line of thought lang ang ginagamit sa isang piece. Unfortunately for me, I'm not like that. Sabog akong mag-isip, mas lalo na kapag nagsusulat ako. Sabihin nalang natin na sawa na rin ako sa mga piyesang nililikha ko na may introduction, body, at conclusion na parang inulit at kinompress na introduction at body. Parang yung style of writing ko noong highschool. Nakakatawa, pero I got good grades then. Wonder what I'll get now...

When I write anything, feeling ko ang pangit ng delivery ko. I dunno, siguro gusto ko lang kasi siguro yun tipong dramatic ang pagkakadeliver. Eh sa kasamaang palad, puro external lang ang kaartehan ko. Wala sa loob. Kaya nga hindi ako nagdedesign ng mga sites namin eh, more on background ako noon. May pagka-minimalist kasi ako. Yun tipong pagkakasyahin ang napakaraming information sa napakaliit na space. Nakasanayan nalang siguro. Naalala ko tuloy nung college, isang buong bahay ang tinitirhan ko pero yung kitchen (na may mga kitchen stuffs) at yung room ko lang ang jampacked. Para kasi sa akin, mas madaling maabot kapag malapit lang, kaya talagang nasisiksik. Kapag medyo malaki ang space at konti lang ang gamit, hindi ako mapakali. Parang hindi ako makahinga. Nakakatuwa sigurong isipin, pero yun ang totoo.

Pero for some odd reason, maganda pa rin ang grades na nakukuha ko sa mga papers ko. Hindi ko nga alam kung hindi lang ako naniniwala sa kakayahan kong magsulat o sadyang kilala ako ng mga teachers na parang tiwalang-tiwala na sila sa writing ko. Siguro nga apektado din ng fact na co-teacher nila ang nanay ko, pero there are times din that I chance upon some old writings of mine, and nasusurprise ako na parang ok ang pagkakasulat.

Siguro nga I'm just not really used to write. I tend to keep things to myself kasi, not only because may pagka-loner ako by nature, but also ayoko din na i-divuldge ung sarili ko sa lahat. Kumbaga sa iilan lang. Pero now I have to change that. No use "reserving" myself to special persons. Mahirap naman kasing maghanap ng mga "special persons" lalo na if you do not open yourself. Tulad nga nung isang "kasabihan" na narinig ko nung college, "In being open, you become close."

SUMMER BREAK @Hinagdaanan Cave,Bohol City

This the time that we enjoy sooo much of travelling around Tagbilaran, Bohol City...

Me and my friends together explores the beautiful and peaceful places of Bohol..

It was not planned that we go here, it just happened that the pedicab driver we had ride tell us that one of the tourist attraction of Bohol was this cave called Hinagdaanan Cave...

It was so awesome place that we explored, a beautiful cave that has a wonderful lake inside of it...

This is the one place was so memorable of me and w/ my friends...

Pizza Ever

Im craving for pizza...

a treat of ate jill (couzin of vann2x)

yummy ever...

DINNER BONDING

A night that we shared everything that comes to an idea to eat outside...

Me and Vann bonding moment @tinuhug bbq...

chipin-chipinay lang ang peg ani na gabie...

ershit man gud ni si Vann2x ba..nag tabi ra gali mi na lami mo kaon sa bbq din naninood na daun sia...

paita baby...

but the result is busog much and laughters....

losing you

if time would go back I would find you a person of no consequence.

in my life you were the only person who can tell me, “i know you.” it did not happen in a blink of an eye. we worked on it, little by little, like pasting plaster to a beloved statue, we’ve come to cherish our shared galatea. i treated you with more warmth, love and respect than any other person in this world.

did that frighten you?

well, it frightened me.

so i started hitting you with pretentious anger, pummeling fists of hatred that were intended to be more violent than they have ever been. so there were those terrible battles of two entwined souls confused and threatened by the onslaught of fabricated calamities sure to extinguish the flickering light of intimacy. “i’m scared, let’s stop this,” – i thought. “fuck, I don’t give a damn,”- i mouthed. 

why did you not hear my unspoken plea for a truce? why did you not listen to the resonance of my bruised spirit unable to halt what it regretfully started? 

i lost.

did you know that?

will you ever know?

in the final exodus of understanding coaxed by fear, pride and distorted sense of self-preservation, i lost you.

and in losing the being enmeshed to my soul i lost a part of myself bigger than is worldly possible. you cannot tell me, “i know you,“ now. for i am just an insult to the person you helped into being.

damn.

if time will go back i will find you a person of no consequence.

Di na natuto

Umasa akong sa damdamin ko para sau, dahil panay ang ngiti mo sakin.

Akala ko may connection na between us since nagkatitigan tayo ng 5 seconds and twice na nangyari yun.

Napansin ko rin na lagi kang may compliment about me to the point na di ko na maiwasang di ma-fall sayo.

Im always inspired while seeing you.

Wala naman akong gana pag wala ka.

Aminado ako na sa kakaisip ko sayo, naging stalker ako.

Hinanap kita sa fb....

I saw you with a girl and mukhang mahal na mahal nyo ang isa't isa.

Ang bigat lang.

I dunno what to do next.

Im so bad at pretending im happy.

Maybe iiwas nalang ako. Hayyysss..

BRAIN TWISTER

 Brain Twister:

I bought this puzzle toy from National Bookstore in Davao CiTy (last year pa ito na bili ko…). The toy consists of 4 puzzle pieces that you have to assemble to form shapes indicated in a design card. I guess I have just illustrated here how my weekends can be so boring and anti-social. LOL!

and because of my boredom moment i engage my self in many things like watching t.v., reading pocketbooks and txting but their one who caught my interest it is to playing this Brain Twister a kind of puzzle that will surely u can enjoy of playing this.that makes ur head to scratch because of the pressure of playing this .